This past two weeks have been very trying.. First my stepfather was rushed to the hospital, turns out it was his gallbladder and he had to have a surgery, he's okay now and is taking time healing.. Then my dog, a miniature dachshund passed away, and he was quite literally one of my best and most loyal friends... I actually adopted two kittens a week later from a friend to attempt to help fill the literal void I feel inside now, only to find out from someone who had adopted kittens from the same home that they have feline leukemia, and as far as I know it's treatable, but not curable.. I don't love them any less.. I just feel badly that someone would give me two cats that could have only a little bit of a lifespan knowing that I just lost my dog that I cried over for a week, and am just now able to keep myself together when I think of him. His name was one of my sons first words.. They would chase each other everywhere and my son would laugh hysterically.. They fought over my lap and would act jealous of one another.. It hurts when someone or something you've bonded to is no longer there.. Then I ended up sick, the only energy I have at the moment is spent on my son, and all I can say at the moment is thank goodness for naps, because he and I both needed it lol. If I had a hat right now I would tip it to any parent who has chronic pain but still gets up every morning to take care of their children and goes the extra mile.. I have been doing it for a week now and it has been exhausting and has made me wonder what it's like to feel healthy, I'll be okay, I know it's one of those times where it takes time to feel better and I will, but for those who won't or have a hard time doing so I applaud you and hope your condition at least improves because you deserve it. I hope everyone has been as well as they can be, and once again, I'm always here to lend a stranger an ear. I always like to take photos when I get the chance to of things that remind me that it's good to be here, to be able to witness some beauty in the world, so maybe I'll start attaching a few when I update.
